Inspiration and Motivation – wherever do we adult figure skaters find these to keep going on the “meh”/”blah” or down days?
You know, those days where you wonder if you’ve made any progress in the last five years of your skating life. Those days where absolutely nothing is working right and coach didn’t get her Java soon enough before your lesson?
One of my most memorable moments was, “if I have to practice the Paso Doble one more time, I’m going to put my fist through the boards.” (Yes, we have a history and not a pleasant one either, I will tell you about it someday.)
On one particular week I started out on Monday and Tuesday totally rockin’, the jumps were there, coach getting happier with solo, multiple run-throughs completed … it was all there. Then by Thursday, everything changed. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was starting to come down with some flu-like thing. I couldn’t skate more than 15 seconds of the program without hanging over the boards and gasping for air. The arena had become painfully colder and damper. Everything started hurting more and my brain was in a fog. I was getting very whiny and my figure skating choreographer was becoming frustrated. She very sensibly stated that there would be no run–throughs today, but instead suggested that we would just polish up small sections of the program. Good idea! Except, my brain had completely disconnected itself from my body by this point, and I was totally incapable of doing anything she asked. Intellectually however, I totally got what she meant, in a deep, almost spiritual way, which rendered me immobile and worse, unable to remember what I was supposed to be doing.
From bad to worse
She diplomatically suggested perhaps I should stop for the day. Who was I to argue? I realized things were worse than I had thought when I almost fell asleep on the bench in the changing room.
And so, I went home … to go to bed and feel sorry for myself for the rest of the day. On Friday, I dragged my tail to work. Yeah, yeah, I know I should keep my bugs to myself. Unfortunately, I had 3 key meetings that could not be rescheduled. I didn’t feel terribly social and pretty much kept my distance from everyone. I gave up on trying to skate Friday night, wrapped myself in a blanket and watched old episodes of Castle with dh.
I came across this video when things were going well, I really liked the song. By the weekend, the song became personal, when I was feeling supremely sorry for myself; it became a beautiful reminder to “Hold On”
Can any of you relate to this song? How do you “Hold On” when nothing seems to be working? Especially before a test or a competition?